Friday, June 17, 2011

Never Give Up

What it takes to go till the end of what you've started?
How does it feel when you're fed up of things you once loved?
Are you afraid of failure? Rejection?

I came across this quote some months back, which says:
When the world says "give up", hope whispers "give it another try".

I didn't understand what it means. All i know was that it was fine looking and that it was just another line. Maybe during the past two weeks i have learnt how deep this line is and how well it fitted in my life.

It started all fine. I was excited. I was happy. I was all thrilled to start a new journey. Where I'll discover new people,new places and maybe I'll discover more about myself. I knew it was the beginning of something really great and I knew it is important. It has to be. Everyone was talking about it. But I did not know how I would get where I wanted to be. Leaving fear and doubts, I set myself to work, giving everything I could to make it happen. I'm a perfectionist,well at least I believe I am one.

I can't remember where it went wrong. I could no longer control things-and people-around me. I was fed up. I was angry. I wanted to run away.
Wouldn't it be cowardice? No,i said to myself, it's only saving myself from  boredom and frustration.
Should I really leave it all? Yes!
But, how about the others? Stop caring about them,they never cared?
oh,yeah? Yeah.
But they are my responsibility! No,they are not!
Yes they are!  
And the battle between me and me continued and it became tedious.

I was annoyed at every single things. It was difficult. Very difficult. I even made Far-ha upset with my stupid mood swings. The reins of my life was slowly slipping from my hands and I could do nothing. I was just a mere spectator. I was teary at every single words one would say! Sometimes I made sure those tears were evacuated cause holding them was becoming a tough job.
I had exams over that. I'll skip the 3 hours exams part. Writing a paper when you are running a fever is not cool at all. But I managed somehow.

After that everything goes blank for 20 hours.

This is where you start to reflect on what really happened.
Hard times are gone. Yeah GONE! Actually it wasn't that hard! It was bearable! You finally have something out of those hard times. You actually grow and learn from everything. You learn even if you're down, gloomy, and grey. You learn at every step in life. And the feeling of accomplishment is so great when you see what you have been able to achieve in the phase you thought was the worst. YES I have made it. I have been able to reach where I wanted to be. In fact I'm twice as happy and excited as I was when the journey started. I have met new people. Made new friends. Discovered things I ignored about old friends.

Never give up. I'm happy I never did. I'm happy I listened to that dim inner voice which kept telling me to go on when I was shouting and crying and wailing. Maybe that was hope. Or maybe it was some weird force you learn to discover only when faced with hardships. Or maybe that's the beauty of life. 

Saturday, June 19, 2010

People Who Have a Social Integration Problem

warning:i'm seriously out of not read if you have heart problems,thank you

ooooh!!!!! and we are surrounded by 0h-so-many of them! gosh! they should be exterminated
those showing symptoms of this kind of serious, complex i'd say, are mostly found among the female population
they vary in sizes and color and ages too 
and very often there major worry is "how to sicken other people's life"
by means and ways,far-fetched sometimes,but many prefer to stick to the classics;let's steal this girl's man
and by professionals like us[yeah i happen to be one too,given that i'm taking professional courses in accounting,mind you :) this is far way "connected" to our social hazards,anyways] we've designed certain specific words and codings to describe them[we just can't let them go with NO-NAMES!],
and i proudly present : b*tch,sl@t,Wh#re,that was the names given to these specific females through the time,and very recently there has been deesse[go only for how it sounds to your ear not to it's literal French meaning] and many many many more,unfortunately i'm like fed up,but it's my civic duty[dir sa?] to complete this very important post to protect the whole human race from this threat!

sometimes i think,if they did not existed,well who would wish bad of me then??? 
who would talk bad of me??
who would spread rumours about myself[rumours according to my accounting theories are just news partly true partly false spread just to cause nuisance to someone,and usually people enjoooooyyyyyyyy gossiping ]

well,Girls,i'm feeling privileged,really,cause you feel i'm so important to speak of me =D and i'm a major topic of your conversations
it really touches me,your concern,and i'll even go to say "utmost respect" to me has touched me to the bottom of my heart...
i am of a vital importance in you peeps life...THANK YOU and yeah...thanks to make my friends part of the rumours [oooh]
you are actually giving US importance while WE totally piss in your face [oki that one was a bit hard,i agree..i just can't help being nasty today...sincere apologies]

and i think you people are a necessary evil,yeah
because you know,i'm a queen [maybe a fat and a very much-not-beautiful one] but i remain a queen in whatever circumstances even if i'm at my worst[i do happen to have bad hair days though i know i have such lustrous hair that will make anyone one on planet Narcissus green]

and yeah,another of there oh-so-irritating habit [a very bad one] oh they have to do everything possible to make themselves acceptable,yeah,sad no? tsssk
they need to COPY and IMITATE perhaps?
they need to adopt our loved jargons which we created with so much of love [grrr this one really pisses me off]
seriously peeps! don't you have other things to do?!? iiiiiiiii i might want to crash your face or maybe slap you HARD!!!!

well they need to do THINGS to "integrate the society" [this perfectly explains the title,though the title sounds like some kind of assignment made for a psychology class]
you need to get yourself noticed,well next time do this [and trust me,it will work and will make wonders,you never gonna believe] : GO and walk NAKED!

well in my arsenal,there are various types of fire-arms: assault rifles, pistols, machine guns, submachine-guns, sniper rifles...but...ehem...i won't go and kill them,it doesn't suit a queen at all

i'm a queen,true to me,true to everyone
i don't need sick and desperate options to be loved[and hated of course]
i'm a drama queen,and i'll even kneel and bow my head to have my crown [like it or not, i even have a throne] 

kisses and love [and loads of drama]

Drama Queen 

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

No Title

So here we are!!
some days back someone told me to check her new blog [the previous one being dead]
and she FORCED me to comment! well i couldn't comment for reasons i still ignore,well she threatened me [yeah sniifff] to go and create and account. here i am..with nothing on my mind..but still need to write something..something great...i haven't done much on line writing, I used to be friends with the pen and the paper and  i used to do loads of heavy writing [yeah my handwriting being really BIG,so it was heavy writing] and then i suffered a tragedy [a dramatised one] and the paper found himself in fire and the pen felt cold.

Here i am,Back in action!
I'm no writer but i can put certain feelings into words...
ah i'm fed up
i don't think that this will have a long life..